If you remember from the beginning, I named this blog, "The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly".....I now introduce you to some more ugly!
You have good days and you have bad days. Some days I don't come out of my room, other days I'm on the couch sewing all day with Brodie. The key is to enjoy your good days and realize there will always be bad days.
Someone asked what the infamous cancer/chemo mouth sores look like...here's the best picture I could get that definitely falls under the ugly category, sorry not sorry. #ItsMyLife
I'm lucky to which I don't get too many and they usually don't last too long. I do however, have the fun bad taste in my mouth most weeks. Usually my week before chemo it wears off a little....and you eat everything in sight because you can actually taste it! Then chemo weeks come and your doomed...but of course you still eat because....well hello, a girl's gotta eat!
Finally, I wanted to talk about attempting make up when you're bald. Who knew this would be such a feat! First, when you have hair you know you obviously blend in your makeup to your hairline. Cough cough, well when you don't have a freakin' hair line thats a bit hard. You don't want to put make up on your head but you also don't want to have a visible color line change on your forehead. As you've read, I'm not a fan of wigs, but at least it helps in the makeup catastrophe. However, if I'm able due to the "occasion" I choose to be bald. Theres no feeling normal with cancer, being bald or with a wig on either. But I am more comfortable without it than with it.
Med update below...
My levels have been the lowest they've gotten lately, which
A) means I never want to leave my bed
B) means I can't be around people and
C) means I have a chance of having to get a blood transfusion.
He brought it up again yesterday after my red count was the lowest it had ever gotten. So fingers crossed thats not a going away present I get after my last chemo!
The clock is ticking! Only a few days left till my last chemo day and I couldn't be more anxious! I've been applying for jobs and so far have one interview so fingers crossed I'll be back in a school come the first of the year!
"You either get bitter or you get better. It's that simple. You either take what's been dealt to you and allow it to make you a better person, or you allow it to tear you down. The choice does not belong to fate, it belongs to you."