Today marks 2 weeks after my last chemo. Even though I was glad to be done, my last chemo was very anticlimactic like you see on tv. My location doesn't have a bell or anything like that, so it was just my mom and I sitting there with my last iv pumping thru then I was gone. I've still gotten sick and my body is still adjusting, but thats unfortunately whats to be expected and will be my new life for awhile. Imagine a 500 lb person who has been on bed rest for almost 5 months....ya thats my body at the moment.
I've been applying to whatever teaching job comes open to try to get back to "normal" on top of have a life and income again, but unfortunately there just aren't many teaching jobs that come open mid year. So we will see.
~I'm ready for my hair to grow back
~I'm ready for my body to feel "normal"
~I'm ready to have eyelashes and eyebrows again
~I'm ready to get my taste back drymouth be gone
~I'm ready to be off so many pills
~I'm ready to have an income again so I can pay my bills
~I'm ready for people to quit staring....yes, I'm bald
~I'm ready for my body to regulate temperature normal again
~I'm ready to sleep better
~I'm ready for all the feeling to come back in my fingers
~I'm ready for life to go on...
Unfortunately, all these things take time. I wish miracle grow would work on my hair....but that would literally be a miracle. I'm hoping in a year I'll have at least a few inches of hair even though I look horrible with short hair. Not looking forward to the porcupine look I'll have to go thru, but I'll take that any day if it means my hair is coming back!
"You either get bitter or you get better. It's that simple. You either take what's been dealt to you and allow it to make you a better person, or you allow it to tear you down. The choice does not belong to fate, it belongs to you."